SCREWD UP DAYS!

dang... my stupid laptop crashed on me yesterday... screwd up big time.... and i had to do my prep work for today's drawing and painting paper... damn unlucky... i seriously dont know wad to do cos my o level coursework submission is on friday! and all my stuff is in the com! anyway... i panic big time.... called nat... headed over to her place to finish up work... my whole family was in malaysia yesterday so i only went home at like bout 10pm? yeah... i did a nice good shading of a zipper... will post it when i get my laptop back... yeah... anyway... a drama happened at nat's place last night... leaving nat and i traumatised... seriously... we both cant stop thinking about wad happened and we both are going CRAZY! "is everybody going crazy....~" hahaha... simple plan... anyway... yeah... even during our papers that scene keeps flashing in our minds.... totally cant concentrate at all... papers today sucked... anyway... prelims are officially over.... but i wont get to breathe properly until friday 5pm... when all the coursework stuff is handed in...

i think im gonna go hav my mane trimmed on friday... hehehe:) im gg down to next to be louis's model for training and jack will trim my hair for me :) yay-ness! tempted to cut my fringe but.... thinking tt louis promised to braid (raggae style) for me with the blue strings....... hmmm... i should just give cutting my fringe a pass :) not sure if im meeting nat for serious retail therapy on saturday or not... actually.... i dont exactly hav anything on the list.... amazing hah? more like she's the one who has a whole long list of things to get.. i guess is jus the mood im in now.... barely ate dinner... skipped lunch... had small piece of bread for breakfast.... i tink its jus the aftermath of wad happened last night.... yeah... aint feeling too good... anyway.. i gtg... coursework finals here i come... *dragging my feet* oh well... aint hav a choice...

chair dance rehearsal from mf in-house concert previously... found it in my sony when i was looking for my art stuff...

i love my limited edition apple bottom jumpsuit!

nothing is forever, remembered that at 8:04 PM.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

im dead tired... shagged... wadever...

i hate life now.. wait.. wad life?

no life...

art and mugging... wth?

no dance, no drummin', no dj-ing, no time for anything!

sigh... my stupid coursework is due on fri.. 5pm... tt will determine my future...

sigh... stress...

i cant believe this.. i still hav prep! for drawing and painting on tues!

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to find someone to help me stop time!!!!!

anyway... ive been working on my final designs since yesterday...

should be quite ok i guess... the black acrylic one looks nice.... the shine and all cos of all the tones of reflection...

i bet you dont know wad im talkin bout... yeah... tts cos u havent seen my design..

and im not gg to post it.... cos its my work...

anyway... i gotta go back to art stuff... and i gotta start doing amath before my mum comes back and kill me for not doing anything else but art... i like working in my bro's room... cos its so bright tt you dont need to turn on the lights... so bright tt when i wanna use my laptop as my lightbox i cant see anything... yeah.. you dont know wad is a lightbox cos you dont do art...

alright..

bye...

my boy boy guarding the door...

he's always companying me... be it doing art or mugging....

when i sit on the floor outside, coloring my final on the coffee table, he'll sleep or sit beside me..

aint he cute? but he can be super irritating at times....

nothing is forever, remembered that at 4:00 PM.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

got this part from joey's blog...
说声"我爱你"
爱情到底是什么?
在很多时候，从不同人的口中
听到那贴心的三个字
"我爱你"
这真的还算是浪漫吗
还是它早已失去了它的含义
太多时候大家都很轻易地在用这句话
把它原本的意思给降低了
就好像变成了一句普通的问候实的
或是要说再见时所说的一番话
在简讯中或是在MSN中
要'说'出这句话一点也不难
其实是件很容易的事
但如果要在喜欢的人面前说出口
ha! 那真是不简单的哦

thought about for awhile... and... ... ...
yeah... is quite true isnt it?
but then again..... dont you think love can be quite complicated and amazing at times...?
it can bring you up to heaven and also bring you down to hell...
little things can make you happy for a whole day.. and a small thing can get you all upset and emo...
唉哟…
有時候真搞不懂爱到底是什么
难到愛不開口才珍貴嗎?

爱能让人疯狂
爱能让人悲伤
爱能让人吃醋
爱能让人开心到极点
爱能让人有种莫名的感觉

有些人爱到很痛苦，旁观者看了都辛苦
有些人爱到很幸福，旁观者看了都妒忌
有些人偏偏不爱，旁观者看了都头痛
看来…爱的力量的确武威到极点…

爱
能让人投入在一场感情里
也能让人玩弄别人的情感…
所以啊…
不要小看爱情哦
别让爱冲昏了头哦，好好珍惜身边的人吧 :)
我们也来轰轰烈烈地谈一场恋爱吧!

nothing is forever, remembered that at 10:04 PM.

time is passing really quickly lately...

dont fancy it...

stupid deadline for coursework submission...

and i still have prep work to be done for my drawing and painting paper on tues!

or else for tt 3hours paper i wont hav anything to draw!

sigh...

how i wish there is more than 24hours a day...

so i can spend more time with you... :(

anyway... thursday.. went to holland and waited for her...

she had to go back to next at the last min.. so i cabbed down to holland at bout 5+6pm.. mugged at coffee bean while waiting for her... only went for dinner at bout 8plus at hong kong cafe at cine...

stayed back for aep yesterday... then specially went to novena to get her smth...

yupp... fixed it up within bout 2hours... yupp... LEGO stuff... im good... i know...

pics of the surprise below... but will take a proper pic of it nxt time as it was quite rush yesterday.. yupp... it caught her attention tt day when we went to tt shop...

so i decided to give her a surprise by getting and fixing it up for her.. :)

watched babylon A.D at 1030 last night... not bad... yupps... almost fell asleep cos i was really tired...

tt smile on her face... was priceless....

managed to take a pic of it... but aint gonna post...

too bad... it is only for me to admire...

anyway... i better get gg... back to work... aep stuff... sigh...

and tmr will be mugging for amath and sciences...

oh yes yes...

was thinking bout it this morning... im gonna change my wishlist... throw away those fashion spects and new phone...

i think wad i really want is to create good memories with you...

these... are priceless...

POLAROID CAMERA still counts... cos yeah... the main aim was to take more pics with you :)

well... i wish to share a pair of stylish earstuds with you.. since u only hav one side.... i can hav the other! :)

and i hope we can carry the same purple crumpler bag one day...

yeah... my wishlist ends here...

its really big i must say.. it looks better real life... cos it was quite dark there

all these in 2hours!
A Legendary Band Ring. Tiff+co

HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LOVE TIFF+CO?!

nothing is forever, remembered that at 9:12 PM.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

hmmm

according to mind your body today....

navel piercing is prone to infection because the skin there experiences more movement and pulling..

it takes 3-12 months to heal and tends to collect dirt and water...

hmmm... i dont rmb mine taking that long to heal when i got it pierced bout 4years ago...

mine didnt even bleed or had an discharge...

credits to shelia who brought me there :)

and it is adviced tt most piercings arent a good idea if you do a lot of contact sports like sea sports... hmmm...

im wondering how i managed to upright my boats be it the optimist or byte when i capsized...

thank god it didnt hook onto anything or my navel willl ripped!

anyway...

im gonna go get started with my observational drawings... if they turn out good....

i might consider posting a pic of it :)

damn... amath paper is tmr... and drawing and painting paper is on tues...

and i havent started on my prep work..

alright alright...

off i go...

seeyou tonight for dinner :)

nothing is forever, remembered that at 11:17 AM.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

yesterday was the 9th... special day...

you were unwell but still came out to find me...

yupps.. cabbed home after tt....

you popped out outside my school gate today... :)

went to novena for lunch...

had haagen dazs mooncake... first time... well... i expected it to be better thou..

yupps... anyway... ive been sinful... barely studying but busy slacking away... but thinking of my art stuff makes me damn annoyed... like seriously...

ive been thinking of wad to put in my new room.. like deco and stuff... and yeah...

saw this cool bed there it has a table attached to it so i can study while im in bed or hav breakfast too :)

yupp... but i saw this high platform bed... like peranakan style.. classy... oh well... shall see how... ive decided to frame up both of my 1500puzzles when im done with them... and also to install a huge mirror in my room...

yeah... dancers...! be jealous...

anyway... i am officially gg to start saving up.. yeah.. cos of my grad night stuff as well..

hotel room

tailored dress which first fitting is this month

heels

manicure, hair & makeup

shopping list

FASHION SPECS

was eyeing at the purple fendi one today..

POLAROID CAMERA

was thinkin of it being a good investment... i can put up the pics i take with you in my room :)

NEW PHONE

yeah... so i can use this phone for my other no and new phone with my original no :)

alright.. i tink theres more but i cant remember them now...

but i tink these are enough to kill

chaos... off to do art stuff before mugging for chem tmr

future bed?

platform bed

icecream mooncake
getting some warmth for my feet.. hehehe :D
sleepy head.. you must be so tired... wake up so early jus to meet me for breakie:)

nothing is forever, remembered that at 7:00 PM.

Monday, September 08, 2008

here i am surviving with bout 3 hours of sleep..
had dinner with her at the cathay last night..
thinking that it used to be your usual hangout place with her...
pulled my mood down to the ground...
i thot of you yesterday.. you were in my mind for 5secs and you left..
dropped by gramophone and saw 3doors down cd... it reminded me of you..
the song we used to have...
i was wondering... why dont i hav a song now? with L..
didnt hav a pleasant night... barely slept... emo-ed..
i tink its one of the most emo moments..
oh wait.. it is the most...
extremely depressing...
you dont hate her, but i do...
i hate her in your place thats why...
i wish she can jus vanish... anywhere...
maybe to hell...
say im vicious, say im nasty.. wadever
i dont give a shit of what you think of me...
you are nobody to me...
L means the world to me... not you...
L... you make it seem like you still care for her... and im aint feeling too good bout it..
by accident i saw smth in your phone i nvr wished, hoped or anticipated to see..
aint gg to react straight in ur face.. cos afterall, its ur phone... ur life...
i cant control.. apologies.. but her existence makes me sick...
anyway... do what you want.. or what you think is right yeah... im nobody to interfere
im supposed to be drawing... but i aint doing so..
fugging screwd for aep...
both coursework and drawing and painting paper...
im in no damn mood to do any freaking damn thing...
i jus want to sleep and not wake up..
come...
lets all go drink and get drunk

PRECIOUS

let this Cubic Zirconia-and-white-gold-plated pendant and ring set

declare your support for the preciousness of life.

in Aqua, Amethyst and Champagne

goodness.. the meaning of this.... thinking of wad happened last night..

very ironic

sigh

nothing is forever, remembered that at 4:04 PM.

Sunday, September 07, 2008

alright..

met her last night...

another last min thing.. sorry.. yupp..

went to bishan... had ajisen noodles for dinner.. her fav :)

caught make it happen again.. but this time with her... :)

same movie 2 days in a row..

we watched the 11.25pm one :) reached home late but it doesnt matter... yup..

she's caught with a flu... and being all naughty and stuff... dont want to take medicine and wear an extra layer gets me annoyed.. oh well... she doesnt hav to work from mon til thurs.. but im havin my prelims.. so its her turn to come find me...

alright alright... i gtg... mugg.. meeting her for dinner tonight :)

im so screwd for my art... god bless me...

mon-physical geog

tue-pract

wed-emath paper2

thurs-chem

fri-amath (the day i die)

next mon-amath&sciences paper 1

tues-chin paper 2 & drawing&painting

my freezer.. the water was about to drip but it got frozen in the end

just look at the sky
so pretty and soft

nothing is forever, remembered that at 11:57 AM.

Saturday, September 06, 2008

met huifen yesterday.. was super last minute but thanks girl.. for being there... didnt have the mood to do anything so she companied me.. watched make it happed at bishan.. she bought tickets... i bought her coffee.. yupp.. talked, gossip, did loads of catching up.. talked about everything and anything... yeah... this is wad i call true sisterhood... yeah... be jealous...

anyway, woke up at 0730 today... met her for breakfast at tpy... took cab down to holland... she accompanied me for awhile at coffee bean before heading to work... i stayed there, mugged... productive... cabbed home.. i realised tt ive been cabbing alot this week... im so so so sure that its definately under her influence.. :P when im home.. i cant mugg.. wth? anyway.. yeah.. i havent mugged since i got home... SHITTTTTTTT!!!!! yeah... im eating blue chips now:) will turn off the com when im done blogging... all distractions gotta go... yupp... stupid one week holiday is coming to an end... damn! i wont call it holiday.. i call it a break.. yeah.. havent been eating much lately.. been surviving on 1 to 2 meals a day.. i havent ate lunch... and in about 2 hours will be dinner time...

MAKE IT HAPPEN...

we will chase our dream all the way to london.. together

nothing is forever, remembered that at 4:39 PM.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

dammit

my mood is ruined

thanks to you

i despise you.
i really do.
the sight of you makes me puke
your presence makes me sick
your attitude sucks
your existence is dreadful
your character stinks
your personality is distasteful

your actions represent you and it illustrate how screwd up you are
your appearance doesn’t give you the approval to treat people like shit
you’re not worthy of any respect from anyone
like seriously
in my eyes
you don’t value
NOT A SINGLE BIT
you make me sick
you really do
and i assume that’s the ONLY achievement you’ve got

so keep working on it...

nothing is forever, remembered that at 3:51 PM.

so much for retail therapy..

only got myself a pair of wedges..

but.... the company is wad matters most :)

didnt know why but jus didnt hav the mood to shop..

was so prepared... brought out bout $300 in cash but oh well...

should jus save it up for the next around :)

didnt manage to get the puma bag i wanted.. cos they changed their collection... sigh...

yupps... cabbed down to cine from home, watched 4bia, then had lunch.. headed to taka, wisma.. then cabbed to vivo... dropped by salon esprit... and finally cabbed to marina square... where we had awesome and VERY SINFUL dinner... hotpot :)

im thinkin if i should stay in hostel next year... cos we're moving back to gramps which is like in bt timah which is like so so SO out of the way... gotta walk all the way out jus to get cab or bus.. yeah.. sucks... even if i can drive, i hope i can drive bro's car... yupps.. anyway...

im so into interior designing stuff...

but thinking tt my room aint gg to be very big..

hmm.. i better not think too much...

but theres this one thing tt im hoping to get...

RAINBOW MAKER...

which is solar powered... cute hah? oh well... ....

i hope i can go to avril's concert.. its like on sunday...

talked to mum.. it seemed it was a nod... but aint confirmed...

cos ive got geog prelims the next day...

sigh...

gosh... i really needa mugg... like seriously...

alright alright... shall go catch a shower and do some serious mugging...

and hopefully mum sees me muggin hard, will give me a YES to the concert...

nothing is forever, remembered that at 2:48 PM.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

10 things I hate about you

I hate the way you talk to me, the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare
I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it made me sick and even makes me rhyme
I hate the way you’re always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call
But mostly
I hate the way I don’t hate you
Not even close
Not even a little bit
Not even at all

nothing is forever, remembered that at 11:18 PM.

gosh

ive been wasting my time away...

wasting my hols away doing absolutely nothing...

i havent been mugging... or say... havent done any serious mugging...

been busy finishing up my coursework which o levels marking is due 2days after my prelims..

wad the hell man..

the school totally did NOT think about the higher art girls mann..

like seriously!

anyway... colouring my jewellery pieces in small scale can drive me mad..

i have to keep on sharpen-ing my colour pencils...

sigh... still have to tone them according to the light source...

goodness me...

anyway... TOMORROW IS WEDNESDAY!

YESH! totallly love wednesday...

have an appointment for retail therapy tomorrow... :)

will be out the whole day... awesome-ness!

anyway... i came home from holland at bout 12ish... had crystal jade for breakfast again..

but this time at toa payoh.. then we cabbed down to holland..

she forgot her bread which she bought for lunch...

so i delivered it to next with milk which i bought from 7-11..

alright.. back to colouring then i gotta start serious mugging...

oh yeahhhh...

time is passing quite fast today...

but its also a bad thing cos tt means i hav lesser time to mugg!

okok...

gtg

nothing is forever, remembered that at 2:53 PM.

Monday, September 01, 2008

im feeling all shitty, crappy, annoyed, wadever

screwd up-period

screw those emo songs...

you think that by listening to them will make u feel better?

or jus aid you to get over wadever that is bothering you... ?

HELL NO

have you ever ask yourself why are you working so hard for sometimes?

have you ever feel like you think there is a point in wad ure doing but you aint heading that direction?

have you ever wonder why things are just like that sometimes?

jus so screwd up?

have you ever just want to prove yourself to someone that you can do better than someone else?

have you ever thought that life could be much easier if ......................

have you?

p.s. why strive to be perfect when we know we'll never be....

for all the hardwork.. jus to get closer, one step nearer to being perfect

is bullshit

it gets you nowhere... it will jus drag you down... and definately not appreciated

nothing is forever, remembered that at 10:53 PM.

huifen's post on

sat's night out

after the charity bowl, i was patiently waiting for the VIP.

so-called surprise for my mum. crys couldn't get a cab.

so she left later than expected. reached there at about 6? haha

kaman got a shock. cause you didnt look like you're 17. my mum got a shock too.

haha. very long never see you in person. so yeah.

why when i say i miss you, you don believe uh? issit that hard to believe?

anyways, my parents gave the four of us a lift to far east.

then we took a bus to holland v. went into crystal jade.

crys had noodles, i tried vegetable dumplings. haha

crys went out to get louis. haha

after we walked out, crys and louis were in front of us.

the three of us were commenting about the both of them.and it made us look like stalkers.

took two separate cabs to pacific plaza.

kaman went back to far east. haha she is 'the far east' girl.

then we went to mac cafe. sat there until quite late.

crys and louis took bus back to tp. we took the bus back to somewhere near my block.

we sat along the roadside. chat about some things. yes i am shy.

after that, i went up. found out that i didnt bring hse keys.

gosh... damn dumb. waited for my parents.

but it got kinda scary after you left. cause its 1am, and its dark. its quiet.

saw my parent's car. walked towards them. shouted "mum"!

haha

i think i gave her a shock.thats it for that night.

darling huifen! wad were you guys talking bout behind our back hah?

u better tell me... or else..... hahahaha...

anyway... WHY DIDNT SHE WAIT WITH YOU!?

til ur parents come back... tsk tsk tsk...

she jus lost 5 marks from her first impression.. hahaha

take care girl :)

nothing is forever, remembered that at 4:11 PM.

alright...

was running late tt day... cabbed down to NSRCC Changi jus for

NEW HUI FEN..

cab fare was $20 and i was there for less than 20mins...

wad the???

yeah.. anyway... it was all worth it... all the catching up, bitching, fooling around..

hahaha... yupps... we should do this more often.. hahaha....

met her in the morning... went down to holland... had crystal jade for breakie..

yupps... we had so much time.. cos we met at 8.30.. yups... sent her to work...

cabbed home...

cant wait for wednesday...

RETAIL THERAPY! watch out....

nothing is forever, remembered that at 2:27 PM.

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CURRENT SONG OBSESSION:
#1-SEPTEMBER BY DAUGHTRY

"Now it all seems so clear, there's nothing left to fear
So we made our way by finding what was real
Now the days are so long that summer's moving on
We reach for something that's already gone"


#2-BROKEN BY SEZAIRI

"You took our pictures down,
And you left them on the ground
Its like you wiped all the memories,
Of what we used to be...
You and me, before it all crashed down."

THE TRUTH

9 most painful things in life


#1 Bringing back the feelings you've learnt to forget

#2 Reminiscing the good times

#3 Trying to hide what you really feel

#4 Loving someone who loves another

#5 Having a commitment with someone that you know wouldn't last

#6 Shielding your heart to love somebody

#7 Loving the person too much

#8 Right love at the wrong moment

#9 Taking the risk to fall in love again


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